When It Feels Like God Isn’t Listening

Happy February 25, everyone! This blog post is going to be a little heart-to-heart chat about some things that are really important to me. I might seem a little too deep, but I hope reading this will bring you a newfound peace and confidence.


Without going into great detail (maybe I’ll do a separate post with specifics), about six years ago my little sister became very sick and every doctor she saw was either very puzzled or dismissed it as the flu. After searching for some time, Duke Children’s Hospital was able to tell us that she had 4 kidneys (not all were functioning properly). At first, this resulted in almost daily doctors appointments and tests, and many surgeries. Over the years, they discovered she also had tethered cord (which greatly damaged her bladder) and many complications with her large intestine. Since 2015, we have traveled back and forth to Columbus, Ohio, for her to receive care at Nation Wide Children’s Hospital. Now she has a Malone in her stomach and a stimulator in her back. This is a VERY condensed summary of the past six years. I could tell you stories upon stories of the adventures and challenges we’ve had.

I tell you all of this information just to give you an idea of how dramatically life changed. For a while, life was just about surviving, getting through the days, and doing whatever was needed to be done. Nowadays, we are definitely not as stressed and have a better handle on things, but we still have so many questions with very little answers.

I think we all have that one thing (or multiple things) in the back of our mind that nags at us. That one thing you’ve been praying about, but eventually it slips away because nothing has changed and you don’t why.

I’ve been praying to God for miracles for years, and though some days I have more doubts, I can tell you that God has been there every step of the way. I think that every person faces loneliness. You can be surrounded constantly by the most supportive and comforting people in the world, but you can still feel lonely in your soul. Believing that God is there and he is a wonderful father is what Paul meant when he said to “fight the good fight of faith.”
So let us not get tired of doing what is good. At just the right time we will reap a harvest of blessing if we don’t give up. -Galations 6:9

Hope is very powerful. It’s an expectation and desire for something. When we hope for something that doesn’t happen or hasn’t happened yet, we question God and his promises. We can become confused, bitter, and depressed.

Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life.                                                                                                                                                -Proverbs 13:12

But what if we put our hope in Jesus instead of our circumstances? What if no matter what happens, we long for God’s will to be done and his promises to be fulfilled? It’s like asking God for a candle when he is the sun! I know he promises to care for me and uphold me. He has the BEST plans for my future and the future of my loved ones.

When we do this, we have a joy that is UNSHAKABLE. God’s love is incomprehensible and I constantly have to remind myself of that.


Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us. -Ephesians 3:20
I may not know his plans and I may struggle with them from time to time, but when he touches my heart I have joy beyond compare, confidence in my steps, and a hope that fills all emptiness.
Thanks for reading!


Happy February 14th, everyone! I was intending to do this post this past weekend, but life got a little crazy. I traveled to Ohio (I live in North Carolina) for my little sister’s medical care and during the trip I got food poisoning. Let me tell you: it was NOT FUN! All of that is a different blog post for a different time.

Anyway! I hear today is a national holiday made of overpriced flowers and chocolate hearts. Just kidding! (I mean, not really, but I think Valentines day is much more than that.) Today is a day to celebrate the affection you show to your loved ones. Whether you’re in a relationship or single, today is a day to value your relationships (romantic or not) and to remember how loved you are.

Have an awesome Wednesday, guys!



Ferrari Cakes and Fresh Paint

Hello, blogging world! I’ve been thinking a lot about what I would write for my very first post. It’s not super thrilling or entertaining, but I think it’s important to focus on the sweet and simple things in day-to-day life. So, let me tell you about my brother Stephen’s 14th birthday. I spent a chunk of the week repainting his room and baking a cake. Some things got out of control and instead of sulking about it, my family and I had a good laugh and I thought it was too hysterical not to share. So, stay tuned!

At the beginning of the year, I felt like God was telling me to share my life on a larger scale. I didn’t know exactly what that would entail, but a few weeks later, I got the urge to start a blog, and it all kind of fell into place! It’s like a fresh coat of paint for the new year. 🙂

Here’s where the funny part comes in! I absolutely love cake decorating, so naturally, I was very excited to make Stephen’s birthday cake. I had grand visions of a tall, red velvet, Ferrari-themed cake, but from the very beginning it was disastrous.

The cake was crumbling and falling apart. I could not get the fondant to turn gray and it kept cracking. After many desperate attempts, I realized it WAS. NOT. GOING. TO. HAPPEN. At first, I was upset, but I realized you can’t win them all. My family and I laughed our heads off, and it will be a funny memory that we will never forget!

Please know that this is probably the worst thing I have ever made! Seriously! Don’t disregard my future baking posts! 😀

So, no matter what type of day you’re having: you feel on top of the world, you feel like you can’t win, you’re bored out of your mind, or you can’t fit one more thing in your busy schedule; let me leave you with this encouragement:

“Whatever you do, work heartily, as for the Lord and not for men, knowing that from the Lord you will receive the inheritance as your reward. You are serving the Lord Christ.” -Colossians 3:23-24

I’ll be writing again soon!